Untitled

I wrote this song on December 27, 2009. (Note: I am not, and have not been, a drug addict. This is a figure of speech, or a parallel to things that we become addicted to and enslaved to.)

Verse 1
For once in my life,
I can't envision
A life without this addiction,
These prescriptions.

Verse 2
The first time today,
I can't even see
A life of so-called normality,
Totally free.

Chorus
I've shredded past the blockade.
I ran screaming past the point of no return.
They're pointing, eyes wide.
But I don't mind.
Because after I break through all the rules,
You're on the other side.

Bridge
I'm stretching too far,
Reaching for you.
These walls weren't meant to be walked through.

Dysfunctional People

Song. Written sometime in either 2008 or 2009. Kind of formatted differently. Comments are welcome. :)

Verse 1
We're all such dysfunctional people.
We're all such dysfunctional people.
I try to wear a smile,
While fixing your frown.
I try to hold you up,
While I'm sliding farther and farther down.
We're losing ground.

Pre-chorus
Whatever happens next...

(Trying to restore order,
Everything is turned around.)

Chorus
I need someone better.
I need someone stronger,
'Cause I'm falling and I'm failing.
I can't do this any longer.

Verse 2
We're painting oceans,
While oblivious to sunsets.
There's beauty,
There's hope.
We're missing it.
We're missing it.

Bridge
Why me?
I'm just as ruined.
You're the only unbroken part of me.
Can't you see?
I'm just as ravaged as them.
How can I help?

Outro
I want to help,
But I'm so dysfunctional.
Help me...

Untitled

Another untitled poem, written in 2008.

Edge of high
Is unattainable.
Low for You
Is higher than my
Mountain peaks.
The higher I jump,
The faster,
The farther,
I fall.
So I fall into You
Because only You
Can look at me--
Love and lowly--and see
Your Son,
High and holy.

Untitled

Yet another old, untitled poem.

The pain is searing.
Still my heart is singing.
If this is for your best,
I'm willing to be just your past.
I know we will meet again
Someday--I just don't know when.
So now I can reach past the pain
To hear my heart singing.

Untitled

This is a poem, a prayer, I wrote quite a while ago. It's self-explanatory. :)

God, this sure seems like
The kind of story You would write,
The kind of picture You would paint,
The kind of dream You've helped me to wait for.
But if this isn't from You,
Isn't true, isn't real,
Please change the way I feel.

Untitled

I wrote it over a year ago and randomly came across it...hope you like it!

God,
I think You gave us
Laughter
To remind us of
Sunny skies and
Inside jokes and
How we can't describe
Everything
Really what is
Laughter
And I think you gave us
Music
To inspire us
To remind us of
Galaxies and
Summer nights with just
A baby's breath of cool wind and
However much we try
We can't describe
Everything
We can label it or
Show how it's made
But really--what is
Music
Some things are
Indescribable
Like You, God
That's why I think
You gave us
Laughter and Music
So we wouldn't have to
Try and fail to use
Words.

Untitled

This is just a fun, short song. :)

Verse 1
Here's to everyone who said, "No."
Here's to all the voices who screamed, "I told you so."

Verse 2
Here's to everyone who said we wouldn't make it.
Here's to all the voices who screamed, "It's too big of a risk--don't take it."

Chorus
We proved you wrong.
We made it now.
So this is our song:
Don't let those voices ever put you down.

Bridge
The majority's not always right.
Sometimes the victory's worth the fight.

Breathtaking

This is another song about the awe of God. There can never be too many. He's so worthy of every song and every word from our lips, every thought from our hearts!
This started out as the first verse, then, with help from a friend, I added a second verse and the chorus.

Verse 1
The stars could fall
Into my arms.
The world could fade
Along with all of it's charms,*
But that would pale
In the breathtaking light of all that You are.

Verse 2
If the moon could disappear,
There would be no more dreams to find,
And all my hopes and my fears
Could fall apart in the dazzling sky,
But all of that couldn't compare
To the wonder of having you here in my life.

Chorus
You're all I could imagine,
All and more than
I could fathom.
You're more than any/everything
That I could ever dream.
You're breathtaking.

*The world could hand me the secret/key to all of its charms. (This line has cause me problems)

My World

This is another toddler song (over 2 years old). I don't even remember the exact context (I think it was simply my thoughts and imaginations), or why I wrote it, but I hope it's still pleasant for you to read!

Verse 1
Sitting in an empty hotel room,
Eating my/some stale microwave popcorn,
Wishing someone would call me,
It's been way too long since my phone rang.

Chorus
Why am I hurting?
It's you that I'm missing.
I know that you're not missing me.
But can't you please try to see
That you mean the world to me,
And if you leave...
If my world's gone, where will I be?

Verse 2
Sitting in an empty waiting room,
Reading the paper while I'm waiting for the news,
Wishing someone would hold me,
It's been way too long since I cried.

(There was a bridge. It was even more corny than the rest of the song, so I omitted it. If you really want to see it, ask me.)

More Than Breathing

This was my attempt at a creative, Switchfoot-esque song. I wrote it over 2 years ago...enjoy!

Verse 1
Endless garbage in cardboard houses,
We have everything,
But we've missed something,
And we think we can live without it.

Chorus
Somewhere along the road
Between innocence and heartbreak,
We've lost everything we've known,
And I'm learning it can't be replaced.
We try to substitute
Anything in place of what we're missing,
But I think the truth
Is (that) we've forgotten (that):
Living's more than breathing.

Verse 2
Ravaged souls under plastic faces,
We can be anything/one,
But we've become nothing/one.
In our aspiration for perfection,
We've misplaced who we are.

Bridge
When is nothing enough?
Why do we look for life
In our own backyards?
Why do we believe (that) our purpose is
No bigger than we are?
Why do we value cash more than the innocence of a child, the beauty of the stars?
Maybe life is more than we can see (breathing),
Maybe we were meant to be more than we are.

Remembering Yesterday

This song is part fact, part fiction. It's primarily about how when you're not around someone, sometimes it's hard to recall their face in your memory. I expanded on that point and fictionalized it to sound better (like "...how it feels to hold your hand, to cry and know you understand..." ...totally fictionalized).

Verse 1
I'm remembering your face,
Like a painful memory,
Like a shadow through the fog.

Pre-chorus
I'm starting to forget.
It's been too long, can't you see?
That I've already forgotten...

Chorus
How your face looks when you smile,
How your eyes twinkle,
How your cheeks wrinkle,
How your hair falls in your eyes.
I'm starting to forget,
I've already forgotten
How it feels to hold your hand,
To cry and know you understand.
I can hardly remember,
It feels like forever,
But it was only yesterday.

Verse 2
I'm painting your face,
But it came out a blur.
How can I picture/relate what I can't remember?

Eagle on the Wind

I wrote this song a few years ago (I think in '06) with a couple other girls. I added the bridge a little later.

Verse 1
My monotony is weighing me down.
My apathy is making me drown,
In a sea of endless activity.
Unchain my wings from needless charity.

Chorus
Eagle on the wind,
How can I soar like you?
Eagle on the wind,
Teach me how to live again.

Verse 2
My soul is aching to be found.
I hate how I'm synthetically bound.
These plastic chains are twisted around,
dragging my dying heart into the ground.

Bridge
Lord, You breathe/control the wind.
Teach me how to soar.
Lord, You light up the stars.
Teach me how to burn for more.

Unfaithful

Contrary to how it may sound, this song isn't about a relationship with a man. It's about my relationship with God. If I remember correctly, I wrote it after reading Ted Dekker's "When Heaven Weeps," about a woman who is pursued even though she is unfaithful time and time again. That's often how my relationship with God is. I don't put Him as a priority. I value human affections and relationships over Him. So many times I get caught up in busyness, even good "Christian" busyness, and don't spend time with Him. So often I run to other lovers, whether they be success, popularity, love, selfishness, or anything else that I run to that's not Him and is not for His glory and because of His love. Yet He still loves and forgives me and loves and forgives me and loves and forgives me!!! He is good and He is love!

Verse 1
With my past, with my life
I don't know why
You'd ever want to be mine

Verse 2
But you won't be refused
You pursued me
I don't know why you'd ever choose me

Verse 3
I feel so unworthy (lowly)
I can't escape
From my past, reaching to claim me

Pre-chorus
And you'd never lose my heart
Because it's safe in your hands
But time and time again...

Chorus
Whenever you seem to fall asleep,
Whenever you don't quickly answer me,
I convince myself you've rejected me,
As I run into someone else's arms.
I know I've broken your heart

Chorus continued or Bridge
Yet you always forgive me,
And you never leave me
Because you said my heart would be safe in your hands.
And so you forgave me
Time and time again.

End/Outro
I'm so unfaithful,
But you, you're so wonderful.
Why you love me is so incomprehensible.
So I'll try to
Be faithful because I love you.

3 AM (Young, Foolish, and Crazy)

Before you read this, please know that nothing awful happened; I'm not angry and bitter. This is just a rambling of thoughts, feelings, and words that I had at one time. I like the verse, I sort of like the chorus, but I don't particularly like the bridge or ending.

Verse 1
We were young, foolish and crazy.
We didn't think.
We didn't care,
(Intoxicating) mountain air,
Wind in my hair,
Your eyes falling into mine.

Pre-chorus
We were so close for so long
Then the summer was gone

Chorus
All of those nights I wasted,
Talking to you till 3AM,
Thinking about us till morning crept in,
Sleepless, your voice ringing in my ears,
My heartbeat all that I could hear.
Everything I gave up,
Time, opportunities, chances now behind me,
There's no time for regrets,
But this has to be said,
Sometimes I wish you'd never met me.

Verse 2
I'm still young, foolish, and crazy,
But now I'm jaded,
Tired of waiting
For your indecisive mind,
For things to turn out fine,
For you to be mine.

Bridge
Are you scared to say the truth?
That you're selfish and needy,
And you've found someone who you think is better than me.
For once in your life,
Be a man of your word.
Tell me the truth.
At this point, it can't hurt.

Bridge 2/Outro
All those nights I wasted...
No more sleepless nights on you.
I've got better things to do
Than miss you.
...I'm young, foolish, and crazy.

My 2-Minute Fairy Tale

I wrote "My 2-Minute Fairy Tale" this summer after coming home at night after an outdoor concert and recalling the contagious energy of the crowd, the sweat of the night, the dusty glow of the stage lights, the stomped down grass, the excitement of the moment. That's how the lyrics started, and they developed more into describing listening to a song rather than a concert. It's girly, I had fun writing it, and I hope you enjoy reading it! :)

Verse 1
I'm taking off my makeup,
Leaving my glass slipper,
Watching my Prince Charming
Fade to dust and glitter.
As I watch the spotlight
Flicker into blackness,
I wish upon a shooting star
And hope this night will last.

Verse 2
I'm running towards the lightning
As the last petal falls,
Hoping that this feeling
Will last inside my walls.
As I gaze down the tower,
Imagining your song,
I can almost hear your melody
Echoing all night long.

Chorus
And I don't want this night to end
Because tonight I am a princess,
And this dirt floor is my ball.
Your voice is my rhythm,
And we can dance all night long.

Bridge
Don't let the clock strike midnight.
I'll lose my heart
And lose my wings
If you leave me here tonight,
So just sing,
Just stop time.
I don't mind being alone,
And I don't mind leaving
Because your voice carries me home.

Outro
And the light fades,
And I'm all alone,
Dancing with your voice on the radio.
You made me a princess
As I waltzed around my room.
For 2.5 minutes I was with you.